I keep trying to write THAT book

I keep trying to write THAT book. A book that rides the wave of an original concept all the way up the beach to touch the dry white sand by the boardwalk. With characters who grip their

 

This is all I wanted to say.

Mia ❤

RELEASE DAY- IT COULD HAPPEN Playlist by Mia Kerick

I’ll be the first to admit it: most of my books are angsty.

I write about anguish. Troubles. Torment.

This is not a crime, as far as I know.

I write angst because it’s what I like to read. I want to feel a character’s pain. I want to earn every single bit of my happy ending.

And so, I want you, my readers, to earn your HEA. I want you to endure right along beside Henry, Brody, and Danny… and when (if) the HEA is finally in sight, I want you to lean back, sigh, and know that you (and they) worked for it.

And I like tortured heroes.

One is good.

Two is better.

Three tortured heroes, who can only be saved by each other’s love, break the bank.

And so as not to disappoint the angst-cravers among you, I have put together an emotionally devastating playlist to accompany your anguish, as you immerse yourselves in It Could Happen, my June 5th Coming-of-Age M/M/M release from Dreamspinner Press.

I hope this music makes you cry.

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I think we can all agree that the artist Vincent Van Gogh was a tortured soul. And I’ve chosen the song, “Vincent”, also known as “Starry, Starry Night”, for my character Danny, the artist and poet. Danny’s eyes know darkness; he paints it every day. And it seems to him that he suffers for sanity whenever he is separated from the two young men who know him best and can save him, Henry and Brody.

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“Vincent”

Don McLean

Starry Starry night
Paint your palette blue and grey

Look out on a summer’s day
With eyes that know the
Darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and the daffodils

Catch the breeze and the winter chills

In colors on the snowy linen land.
And now I understand what you tried to say to me

How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen
They did not know how

Perhaps they’ll listen now.

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“Iris”, by the Goo Goo Dolls, is Henry’s song. Henry, who doesn’t want to world to see his deep need for two boys, Danny and Brody, is driven to find truth of himself in his lovers’ arms. In a broken world that seems to want to break him too, he must find strength to face his strictly religious family and the conservative part of society in which he is immersed, in order to be himself.

And I’d give up forever to touch you

Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be

And I don’t want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

Cause sooner or later it’s over

I just don’t want to miss you tonight

And I don’t want the world to see me

Cause I don’t think that they’d understand

When everything’s made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

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I chose “Jealous” by Labrinth as Brody’s song. What’s most interesting is that Brody is not your typical jealous guy. Although scared to give his heart away, when he finally does, he gives it completely. He is open and loving toward everyone, but is extremely so toward the two teenage boys he loves. And Brody is accepting, no matter what. So when their hearts are yanked away, he accepts it. He wants only the best for them in their separate futures, and appreciates the time they shared together without bitterness. He harbors no hard feelings for them, but wishes that he could be the rain that falls upon their skin, so that he could still have connection to them.

“Jealous”

Labrinth

I’m jealous of the rain
That falls upon your skin
It’s closer than my hands have been
I’m jealous of the rain
I’m jealous of the wind
That ripples through your clothes
It’s closer than your shadow
Oh, I’m jealous of the wind

‘Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There’s nothing to forgive
But I always thought you’d come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It’s hard for me to say, I’m jealous of the way
You’re happy without me…
 

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All three boys have occasion to apologize in It Could Happen. They create pain for each other and they eventually all experience sincere regret for the tears they cause. At different times in the novel, fear drives Henry, Brody, and Danny all to attempt to escape the bond they have formed over years of friendship. By the end of the story they realize that nothing is worth jeopardizing their intense and precious connection.

“Sorry”

Buckcherry

Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away

I missed you and things weren’t the same

Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue, I’m sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds, and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry:

This time I think I’m to blame it’s harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried it’s never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry!

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“Whatever it Takes” is a song of commitment. After Henry, Danny, and Brody have tried to go off in their own directions and failed because they realize that their relationship is what completes them as individuals, they reunite and pledge to do whatever it takes to make it work. They recognize how they have hurt each other. They know that they have more logical reasons to let each other go than to stay together. Nonetheless, they commit to opening up even when it ispainful, and in that way, to do whatever it takes to make their love successful.

“Whatever It Takes”

Lifehouse

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn’t even know
Now there’s a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I’ll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what’s at stake
I know that I’ve let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I’ll keep us together whatever it takes

She said “If we’re gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don’t hide the broken parts that I need to see”
She said “Like it or not it’s the way it’s gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me”

I’ll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what’s at stake
I know that I’ve let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I’ll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

 

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These lyrics speak to me:

Funny you’re the broken one but I’m the only one who needed saving
‘Cause when you never see the light it’s hard to know which one of us is caving…

Each of the young men—Henry, Danny, and Brody—at times, is the broken one who needs saving. And at other times, each needs to be the one to do the saving. One by one they each step up to the plate and rescue the others.

 

They must be strong and brave to initiate the relationship, daring and risk everything to become physically intimate with each other, and then decide if it is worth the cost to present their fledgling and unconventional relationship to the public, to their family and society.

“Stay”

Rihanna

All along it was a fever

A cold sweat hot-headed believer
I threw my hands in the air, said, “Show me something”
He said, “If you dare, come a little closer”

Round and around and around and around we go
Oh now, tell me now, tell me now, tell me now you know

Not really sure how to feel about it
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can’t live without you…

Funny you’re the broken one but I’m the only one who needed saving
‘Cause when you never see the light it’s hard to know which one of us is caving

Not really sure how to feel about it
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can’t live without you
It takes me all the way
I want you to stay…

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In most cases, I’m a HEA kind of writer, but am not a spoiler kind of writer, so in the event the three teenagers succumb to their love, here is a song to reflect the joy.

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“Lovin’ You”

Minnie Riperton

 

Loving you is easy cause you’re beautiful.
Making love with you is all I want to do.
Loving you is more than just a dream come true.
And everything I do, is out of loving you

La la la la la, la la la la la
La la la la la, la la la la la
Do do do do do, ooh

No one else can make me feel the colors that you bring,
Stay with me while we grow old,
and we will live each day in spring time.

Cause loving you has made my life so beautiful.
And every day of my life, is filled with loving you.
Loving you I see your soul come shining through.
And every time that we have (uuuuhhhhhhh)
I’m more in love with you.

 

I hope you pick up a copy of It Could Happen from Amazon.com or Dreamspinner Press and enjoy the angst!!

❤ Mia

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